When I told y'all our big announcement about adding a little boy to our family (who will henceforth be referred to on this blog as "C"--yes, that is his initial; no, I am not revealing his actual name), I briefly discussed DH's sheer joy at having a son. I didn't get a chance to delve into my very complex emotions, though.
I thought from the start of this pregnancy that I was having a boy. But, I also thought G was a boy from day one, and obviously I was very wrong, so I (and everyone around me) took my gender prediction with a grain of salt. This pregnancy was so different, though. From how I'm carrying to what I'm craving to how I'm feeling, there is nothing similar between this time and last.
If I were being completely honest with myself--and with you--I would tell you that in my heart of hearts, I thought I wanted another girl. The main reason was because I knew what to expect; I'm (obviously) a girl, and I've (more or less) successfully parented a girl for the past 2+ years. I felt confident I could do it again.
But the moment I opened that card--and saw "BOY" circled (and the undisputable sonographic proof!)--I knew that a son was the perfect addition to our family.
Sure, it means that DH can do all things "male" with his son, something that I can already see is filling him with a strong fatherly sense of pride. But this "new man" in my life is giving me a new sense of purpose as well.
Now I can raise each of my children as true individuals; I secretly feared that with two girls, I would feel compelled to make everything absolutely equal. If I gave one a tutu for her first birthday, shouldn't the other get an equally special tutu on that special occasion as well? If one played volleyball, shouldn't the other? And what if one was better than the other; what about sibling rivalry? Now that I know I'll have one daughter and one son, I don't as worried about the level of competition between my children. I know gender isn't the only (or even the main) thing that makes a person unique, but in my mind, it will irrevocably help me remember that my two children are their own, special person who doesn't need to be compared to anyone else.
Now I can look forward to doing "boy" things too... I can see G on the sidelines in her cheerleader uniform, while C is on the field (DH hopes as a kicker, since he believes that kickers have the easier path to a college scholarship and the NFL). I can imagine me dragging C to all of G's dance recitals. I can see me dancing with him at his wedding... something I know I would have missed out on as the mother of only girls.
Now I can rest assured that when my children hit their teenage years, at least one of them will still love me. I'm sure the parents of teenagers are reading this and laughing, and thinking, "Haha, they'll both hate you when they're in high school!" Maybe so, but every boy I've ever met (well, every good boy) has had a soft spot for his mother. They seem to be the ones who still remember mom loves them in the midst of their teenage angst, while the daughters are screaming in their rooms because mom wouldn't let them wear a miniskirt on a late-night booty call date. And having two children, I'm sure they'll play off me and DH, just like I used to play my parents against one another. At least this way, the law of averages is in my favor; with two children (especially children of opposite genders), I'm more likely that someone will be on my side.
And now I can know--without a doubt--that our family is complete. DH & I will never wonder two, five, ten years down the road (like many of our family members are doing now) whether we should have another child to try for the gender we don't already have. We are done, and are very happy with that.
If you're the mother of only girls, what do you think you'd enjoy about having a boy?















