I want to start by thanking you all for your patience with me over the past few weeks, as I've teased and foreshadowed a big announcement that's going to affect not only my life, but this blog as well. You've waited (some of you not as patiently as others!) long enough, so here it is:
Yes, that means what you think it does. I am leaving my job to stay at home full-time with G. I informed my bosses about my decision a few weeks ago, but was hesitant to talk about my career-altering move here until all the pieces were in place.
But over the past six months-- particularly since July, when I switched to second shift, giving me far more time with G-- I've come to see my place not in a TV newsroom, but at home with my daughter. Honestly, for the first 18 months of her life, I didn't know what I was missing; maybe I wasn't missing all that much. But as her intellectual development has started to take off, she's beginning to need me more than ever: not the "physical" neediness of an infant, but the "role model" neediness of a growing girl. I realized that I didn't want anybody other than me, no matter how much I love or respect that other person, to be G's primary caregiver or role model.
Additionally, this is a brutal time in the TV news business. I have coworkers who have been forced out of a job over as little as $3,000. On top of that, my hours are getting longer, my overtime shifts more frequent, and my patience with an evolving industry wearing thin. I came to a stark realization about two months ago-- why was I leaving the people I loved to go to a job I didn't? The stress I've taken on professionally in the past year has become overwhelming; it was affecting my family, my friends, and my health. I felt like I was at a breaking point.
It's funny, because a year ago when I started this blog, I was asked by one of you if I'd ever contemplated staying at home. At the time, I vehemently said, "absolutely not." I felt confident that pulling double-duty as a working mom was for me. After all, I'd shelled out close to $200,000 for my education, and I felt I had to put it to good use. But what better way to benefit from my education than by teaching my daughter?
So, for the next few years at least, I am hanging up my suits, shoving my high heels in the back of the closet, and eschewing the 7am wake up call in exchange for play dates, ABCs, and trips to the library. I plan to give G the experiences my own mother gave me as a stay-at-home mom nearly 30 years ago. Those are days I absolutely cherish-- morning with her at the museum, afternoons at the park, weekends at the pool. I not only learned a ton about the world around me, but I learned a lot about the kind of woman my mother is as well. Now, I hope to do the same for my daughter.
As I transition from "working" to "stay-at-home" mom (this won't be happening immediately; I've told my bosses I'd stay on until they can hire my replacement, or Dec. 23rd-- whichever comes first), you'll notice some changes to this blog. I'm going to be writing a lot more openly about my job and what I loved/hated about it and being a working mom in general; I'll be talking a lot about finances and ways I've found to budget on a single income; I'll be talking about my emotions as I move forward with a decision I couldn't have imagined making just a year ago.
I hope you'll join me on this ride. I hope you'll add your two cents, whether they be positive or negative. If you're a working mom, I hope you won't feel I've abandoned you. If you're a stay-at-home mom, I hope you'll welcome me to your tribe.
Here's to the future-- it's coming on pretty fast!
(Oh, and just to clarify... I am not going to change the URL of my blog... I paid good money for it! I am going to be reformatting my header and my blog button. I'm thinking of renaming my blog "Confessions From A FORMER Working Mom"-- what do you think?)














