I'm a mess...
I knew this was coming. I could sense it from my very core. My heart was aching with everything inside of me; it was only my head that told me that maybe, maybe I'd have a chance at keeping him with me. With us.
Then he told me-- he did it in such a public way, I could have hit him. Did he really have to tell everyone... everyone... that he didn't want to be a part of my life anymore? I mean, it's bad enough that it's over between he and I, but I didn't need the whole world to know that.
Do you remember in high school, when your boyfriend would break up with you, using the cliched line, "It's not you, it's me", and then bolt for the side of the prettiest cheerleader? That's exactly how I feel right now. He gave me that stupid line, telling me he had to leave... that he wasn't going to be able to achieve his goals here... that he'd found someone else who could make his dreams come true.
He MET SOMEONE ELSE?? Honestly, I'm so angry I could spit, so miserable I could cry, and yet, I'm all cried out. I have no tears left for him.
I gave him the best seven years of my life. I cheered him on through all his ups and downs. I supported his career 100%, and at home, I often bought things just because he liked them. I even blogged about how amazing I thought he was. Once, I almost went as far as putting his picture on a shirt, and wearing it out of the house, just to show my undying devotion to him. Can you believe that? What was I thinking?
He's gone now, and it's pretty obvious, he's not going to be coming back. My friend, Dan, said some AWFUL things about him online, and he read them (rule #1 about the internet: don't write something you don't want others to see). I mean, these were reallllllly bad comments, calling him things like "selfish", "narcissistic", and "heartless". They're all true, of course, but all those words did was solidify the fact that he's gone for good.
I don't know what to do now. I've had a couple of days to let this all sink in (he told me on Thursday), and at times, I can't believe it's real. I think I'm going to turn around, and there he'll be, wearing his gold and maroon shirt that I've always loved on him. I guess I'm in denial... that's, what, the 2nd stage of the grieving process? I guess I have a long way to go.
I'd like to think that I'll be better without him-- that we'll be better without him-- but that's hard to truly believe at this point.
So, today, I have just this message for the man who broke my heart by leaving me and not looking back:
You didn't think I meant my wonderful DH, did you???
oh dear! you got me!
HAHAHA, that was great. I figured it out in the second paragraph.
Gotta love Cleveland Sports :)
hahahahah the whole time I was thinking about what I would write you! that's so funny! good one :-)
You definitely had me going! This is funny!
you got my tummy all upset....
urgh! Glad it's not your hubby, I was ready to hunt him down.
;o)
I love this post...I knew it couldn't be DH but you had me guessing!! :)
thats a good one!! :) I love it! :)
Have a happy Monday :)
And to think I was tearing up for you WOMAN! This is so well done.... you freak!
ha! i knew it wasn't DH but i kept wondering who it was. ack, i'm not really a lebron fan anyway, so whatever!! but sorry your heart is broken!
omg, i was feeling so sad for you...that was mean!! LOL
LMAO... omg i was almost in tears and then its about Lebron... too funny
LOL~ I didn't... I kept reading the top of each paragraph until I got to the end;o) It was intense though!
You had me scared there!
LOVE IT! I'm not a huge NBA fan (my loyalties lie with the MLB), but I was really hoping he would stay in Cleveland. On the other hand, it is nice to see someone turn down $$ for the chance to win a title, which isn't something you see every day.
Try not to take it personally ;)
WOW... lol. that was great... you got me too!! :-)
God Bless
<3
otm
He totally had that planned with Wade and Bosh since the Olympics. That's why he played so crappy at the end this year. I hope he never gets his stupid ring. :-P
LOL I love it. I can't stand him in the first place.
I had to scroll down quickly, to see who you were talking about! LOL
OMGosh you had me so worried for you! Not nice! LOL!!
You got me girl! I do have a friend going through this very thing on her blog...real life drama. I feel so bad for her.
I am glad yours was nothing like it seemed!
so I haven't been here for a while because I've been out of the blogger loop, and I read this first thing!! WOW....SO glad it's not true!! PHEW!!!!!
Oh, how I agree with you, my fellow Clevelander. Although, after watching his stupid announcement, I realize what a bad person he is. He is EXACTLY what Dan said he is. He's going to have a VERY hard time sharing the limelight in Miami. I agree with Melody - he checked out a long time ago! Ugh.
Still giggling!
Okay girl, that is just mean. My stomach was in my throat. I kept thinking no way...no way...no way! Silly!
Oh my goodness, you had me going LOL! My hubby is a Browns fan, so I know how passionate Cleveland is about their sports LOL!
Mary Ellen
Not funny. I was like, OMG this poor girl. You got me. Have a good week.
Holy crap lady! Don't do that to me!! My heart was aching for you!!
I can laugh about it now, but... wow! You just don't do that to a hormonal woman! :)
Honestly, I thought maybe your DH went on a trip ALONE leaving you to be a single mom...
Then... I totally LOL...
As I totally thought you were talking about your boss...
Never did I consider you'd be talking about LeBron until I got to the Dan link...
Girl, you just about gave me a heart attack!!!
HAHAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
did I mention
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
I KNEW EXACTLY what you were talking about.
Wanna know something funny?
Since he is now a hated man in many parts, that almost makes me like him.
hahahaha, wow, you got me for a second, then I had to scroll down! hehe, great post =)
Dude.
Duuude.
You totally had me going there.
I was all set to write some nice counseling stuff.
Now I'll just say...Lebron who?
Well you got my attention. I was thinking sheesh! What did I miss? Lebron. Pssshhhhhttt! Whatever.
LOL
I don't think I've ever been to your blog before...but I noticed the name of the post on Kearsie's page and I clicked over.
Girl. You got me good. Sheesh!
Great build-up with this post Elizabeth. I think going to the Heat is a big mistake for LB.
Omgggg, you scared me. I'm reading thinking "what the heck is going on what happened what did I miss?!"
Thanks for getting my blood pressure up. ;)
Okay, I'll admit, at first, yes, I was a little worried, but then I remembered your love for basketball and, more specifically, He Who Shall Remain Nameless, and I breathed easier!
GOOD ONE!!
My heart was BREAKING for you!!! hahahahah You got me!